fear and heartbreak

I doubt I can offer any words of wisdom or comfort in light of the mass murder of innocent children and adults in Connecticut this past Friday. I was at work on Friday when I started reading about what was happening. I would read a little bit, and then cry some more about the whole thing. Students would ask me why I was crying, and I didn't want to be the one who told them, so I just told them that there had been a shooting. I couldn't imagine being the one to tell 12 and 13 year olds that little kids had been murdered at school.

However, now they know. And they're coming back to me tomorrow.

My heart is heavy tonight as I think about seeing my students tomorrow. My heart is heavy thinking about the thought someone hurting them. My heart is heavy thinking about their fear of being at school. My heart is heavy thinking about parents who will bury their children this week. My heart is heavy because there are Christmas presents hidden in closets that will never be opened. My heart is heavy because there are children who lost their mothers. My heart is heavy because teachers died doing their job.

I cannot fathom what Friday was like at Sandy Hook Elementary. I cannot fathom the fear that the children and adults felt. I cannot fathom the pain as they watched their friends and students and teachers die.

I love my job. I love my students. Even the ones who drive me absolutely crazy and make me want to punch a wall. I would protect them without hesitation. I just don't think I'll ever have to.

But last Friday, teachers gave their lives for their students. Teachers lost their students they loved.

My heart is heavy.

everyone loves a shutout

Since I've been an adult, my dad hasn't really liked going to Alabama football games. He loves to watch them, but he hasn't liked going to them. Too crowded. Too hot. Too cold. No replay. Etc.

Until this fall.

We somehow convinced him to take us to the Mississippi State game. We went a tailgated. We froze.

It had been about 70 degrees the day before and I had NOT packed appropriately, so my parents and I stopped at the Target in Hoover on our way over, so I could buy a new outfit. (I think I looked ok considering...)

It ended up being a GREAT day- huge win over Mississippi State.

Fastforwardafewweeks.
Dad has decided he loves going to games, and we're going to the Iron Bowl if we have tickets or not. So, this past Saturday morning, we hopped in the car and headed over to Tuscaloosa.

It was a GREAT day. Our seats ended up being AWESOME.

There's not a whole lot to say about Auburn, but:

• They are terrible at football.
• Where are all of those fans who were "all in" two years ago? Because, seriously? I saw about 3 people in Auburn gear the entire time.

 Also. I LOVE beating Auburn. There's really nothing better. But. Beating them when they can score ZERO points??? GLORIOUS. Absolutely glorious.

#rolltide

every. freaking. day.

A guy friend of mine was recently complaining about how high maintenance his beauty regime had become because he had to trim his chest hair. Now. While I do not have to trim my chest hair (because I like to look like Burt Reynolds obvs), I will NOT listen to a man complain about how much it takes him to look good. So, I asked a simple question: How many products- besides shampoo/conditioner- do you use on your hair every day?

His answer: Um, does washing my head with body wash count?

SERIOUSLY.
Boys kill me.

But in all honesty, I love a good hair product, so I thought I'd share my (almost) daily hair routine and product list! I have a LOT of very fine blonde hair. It's fairly straight, but it'll be a little wavy if I just let it dry. Not cute wavy. More like "hey you slept on your wet hair and it dried that way"-wavy. 


My current shampoo is Bed Head's Color Combat Dumb Blonde Shampoo. I am not very loyal to shampoo. I tend to jump around, but I like Bed Head's products a LOT. I tend to try whatever is on sale at Ulta.

 When I bought this shampoo, I bought the conditioner too. UM. Hated it. It felt like GLUE. Some people like really thick conditioner, but I do NOT. I hated it so much that I ended up giving it away to a friend. My friend Rachel mentioned how good the Suave Professionals line was, so I thought I'd try that. (Especially since I had just given away a $16 bottle of conditioner.)  I ended up buying Suave Professionals Keratin Infusion Smoothing Conditioner.

I've liked it a lot. My hair def feels more healthy when I use it. Without feeling like glue. Which is good. Obvs. When I get out of the shower, I wrap my hair in a towel. I know you're not supposed to do this, but I always have. And I HATE wet hair touching my skin, so I have to do something. I use a comb before I start adding products. When I was young, I would literally dry my hair and go, but as I get older, I find that my hair just doesn't do right if I don't use products. Also. I am a TOTAL sucker when I get my hair cut. I am totally the person that buys the products that the stylist uses. Smooth move, hair stylist.
The first thing I spray on my hair is John Frieda Sheer Blonde Go Blonder Controlled Lightening Spray.

This is a fairly new product. I just found it this past fall/winter. I have naturally blonde hair, and it always lightens to an almost white in the summer sun. But for the past few years, I've had to highlight it in the winter because it just looks so dingy. My mom would literally pull it through a cap for me about twice a year. But this past year, I found this stuff and I just spray it on every day and my hair color looks PHENOMENAL. It still looks natural and not dingy at ALL. Yay!

The next three products are to help my hair look smooth but still have some volume. I use

SUPERSTAR™ Queen For a Day Thickening Spray- just lift a few sections and spray.

 It sprays more like hairspray than foam, so I like it a lot. I learned how to best apply by watching this:

Isn't she the cutest thing? I've never used Aquage, but I've heard good things! Maybe one day! The last two products are a part of the S-Factor line. My hairstylist explained that the "S" stands for smooth, sleek, shiny, sexy, and all other good S-words. Which I think is really funny! The first is  BODY BOOSTER™Plumping Spray.

Real talk. The best thing about this product is that it smells DELICIOUS. I swear, that fact alone makes this product worth it. But it also makes my hair full without being poofy.

AND. Last but not least is SMOOTHING LUSTERIZER Defrizzer & Tamer.

This is probably my favorite thing on earth. It does exactly what it says- tames and defrizzes. My hairdress applies it before and after drying, but I'm on a budget here, so we have to make wise decisions.

Then I dry!
With a paddle brush.
And a gigantic round brush.
Sometimes I straighten.
Let's be honest.
Not much.

So there's my hair routine! What's yours?

don't mess with me. or Texas.

For Spring Break, I flew out to Temple, Texas to visit my cousin Katharine. Her husband is in his residency- and they have two children. These are all my Instagram pics from the week-- if you don't follow me on Instagram, you should! My username is camismith

Because I somehow missed it in highschool, I finally caught up with the rest of the free world and read The Catcher in the Rye. I really liked it!

 This is Nate and I sharing tortilla chips at Chipotle. He's hilarious-- he's 18 months old. such a sweet boy!

 At lunch at Rudy's one day. They had GREAT bar-b-q. I had the brisket. My favorite fact was that they didn't serve the meat on a plate, but a piece of paper. It was EXCELLENT.

 Went to the Bell County museum in Belton. It was really cute. Will liked the water pump :)

  One day we went to Austin to visit the Capitol. Had so much fun- love this kind of nerdy, history stuff!

The only complaint about my entire trip was that my flight out of Killeen was delayed for two and a half hours. Ugh. 

But other than that, I had a BLAST!
God Blessed Texas.

passion2012

On Sunday night at church,  my friend Caroline and I were talking about going to Passion this week. Because I am normally back in school this week, I hadn't even thought about going, but Caroline told me that our friend Rachael wasn't using her ticket for the first two sessions, So the plan was for me to check her in and use Rachael's wristband. While I was in line to get the wristband, my BFF Adam called and told me that he got an extra ticket when he checked in. 

Long story short, I got to go to Passion all week. It was INCREDIBLE. I had pretty good seats the whole time because I sat with people who cared. There were 45,000+ people in the Georgia Dome. All of them desiring to bring glory to God.

   

There were a ton of things I loved about the week. Most of all, I loved being immersed in Jesus. It's been a long time since I've been spent that kind of time immersed in God's word or focused on Him. It was SO needed.

 

Another favorite part was my family group. Because God orchestrated so much for me to be there, I kept trusting that He had ordained all of it, so I begrudgingly went to small group. I was anxious about being too old, too out of touch, too ugh.  But. God planned that too. My group was great. I loved meeting with them and praying with them. I love that I genuinely want to pray for these people and keep in touch with them.

 

On the last night, each person was given a candle and instructed to wait outside until midnight to light them. Then, while we illuminated our candles, the statue in the middle of the plaza was illuminated as well.  The statue and our candles were to be a symbolic gesture to stand up against human trafficking in our city, the country and the world. There are 27 MILLION people currently enslaved in the world- and Passion raised money all week to help stop it. The goal was to raise a million dollars- but in God's way, He blasted through that number. They raised THREE MILLION DOLLARS in 4 days. Mind blowing.

In our small group, we answered the question, "What is the one thing you want God to do in your life?"-- I had to think about it for a while, but my final answer is that I want to become to enthralled with the greatness of God that my sin looks foolish. 

So, I'm praying that for myself. If you're interested, I'd be happy for you to pray that for me, too!